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[1122|january 17 2004]

Moving my LJ to 24kocylinders.

>_>;

If anyone still reads this, please update your friends' list.

I won't be updating for a couple of months... BT and all.

Take care~.

<3

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Kagrra [0048|january 03 2004]

[ mood | tired ]

[ music | allure idea - mental derangment ]

Another of my favourite J-rock bands, Kagrra, has been signed to a major record label. On January 1, 2004 they signed with Columbia records of Japan. >_>;;

Can't any of the good J-rock bands stay on an indies label? (Nightmare and baroque signed with majors too. >_>;) Oh well, I was getting tired of PS Company's crap anyway. >_>;; Now... If only STR could get signed to a major label... more money for キカサ.

I ♥ キカサ。

Lmao. >_>;; I think it's cute that Kikasa writes his name in katakana and not hiragana.

キカサ, キカサ, キカサ~。

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♪♪ ain't afraid to die ♪♪ [0432|december 31 2003]

[ mood | ti~red x__x ]

[ music | Dir en grey - ain't afraid to die *___* ]

君と二人で歩いたあの頃の道は無くて
それでもずっと歩いた、何時か君と会えるのかな

なだらかな丘の上緩やかに雪が降る届かないと解っても
君の部屋に一輪大好きだった花を今．．．

去年最後の雪の日堅く交わした約束
思い出せば溶け出し掌から零れて

なだらかな丘の上緩やかに雪が降る届かないと解っても
君の部屋に一輪大好きだった花を今．．．

窓辺に一人きりで只雪を見つめてる君を思い出しながら
硝子越しに君を浮かべ最後の口付けして．．．

ねぇ　笑ってよ　もう泣かないで
ここからずっと貴方を見ているわ

なだらかな丘の上緩やかに雪が降る届かないと解っても
君の部屋に一輪大好きだった花を今．．．

明かりは　静かに　白く染め行く街の中
君が見た最後の季節色
涙を　落とした　現実とは残酷だね
君が見た最後の季節色

四季と君の色やがて消えるだろう
雪は溶けて街角に花が咲き
君が見た「色彩は」そっと溶けてゆく

今年最後の雪の日街角に一輪の花
空を見上げれば最後の雪が掌に零れて

　
♪
　

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Kyo-sama *__* [0103|december 31 2003]

[ mood | ._.; ]

[ music | zilch - Inside the pervert mound ]

Waha! I findeded it... ^_____^

( -drool- Kyo *___* )

He's so sekushii... *___*

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[2342|december 30 2003]

[ mood | x____X ]

[ music | Shiver - virus ]

Okee...

So I'm actually updating this thing? ._.;;;

^^; I know it's been a long while, but who cares, ne? 'Sides, I've had nothing to talk about. I guess I'm doing well enough. ._. I mean, I haven't died or anything, right?

Uhm, I leave in 19 days. o_O How's about that, eh?

Oooh. I have no idea what to rant about. >_>;; I could always babble about Jrock, ne? ^^;; I think I might do that.

Anou... I made my own Dir en grey shirt. ._.; Yeah. Lmao. It's kind of gay, because I just took an old red T-shirt I had and a permanent marker... then wrote Dir en grey on it. It looks rather spiffy though! ^^;;;;

*__* I want a poster of Kyo... or Toshiya. Or... of [KR]cube Die. Oho, I love [KR]cube Die... Die with a gun. -drool-

>_>;; For some reason I have a strange attraction to skinny Japanese guys who aren't afraid to wear makeup. ._.;;

-wanders off to find that picture of Kyo dressed all pirate-esque and stuff- *_*;

<3

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Hey hey hey... [1352|november 29 2003]

[ mood | Don't wanna go to work! -sob- ]

[ music | Slipknot - Wait and Bleed ]

Woooooo. I slept WAY too much. x___X Seriously, 14 hours is too damned much. (Rawr, and I hate my Gramma's computer... I'm using it right now x_x.)

I've decided to make another journal and use it for anything related to my preparation for and experiences in the US Army. I'll include things like my exercise routine (how many sit-ups, push-ups, etc I do each day) and running distances, etc. (Heeeey, if anyone knows a good place to run without having to join a gym or worry about getting hit by a car, let me know!!! Please? =) So, if any of you'd like to read about any of that click on over to my new journal military_girl. I won't post anything non-military related there; that stuff will be here and vice versa. ^^;;

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Answers... [2331|november 26 2003]

Huzzah!

Everything went well. I scored a 92 out of a possible 99 on the ASVAB. =)

I've chosen my MOS: 96B (ninety-six bravo, Intelligence Analyst). =)

My ship date is January 20, 2004. I have to be at the Nashville MEPS at 0600 on 20040120. This time instead of driving up there that morning (like the other times), I'll stay in a hotel for one night.

BT will last for nine weeks in Fort Leonard Wood, Missouri. Eeee. Coldness. x_X After basic, I will spend at least 16 weeks in Arizona for AIT. And after AIT I plan on signing up for the Hometown Recruiter Assistance Program and coming home for a couple of weeks after AIT, so I can spend some time at home with family without having to use up my vacation days. =)

I'd just like to be able to get two more people to enlist as my referrals before I ship so I can move up to PFC before BT ends. That would be nice. =)

Squeeeeee. I'll be turning in my notice to my boss. I'll be quitting about January 5. So, bye-bye Lone Star and bad tips. Yey.

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Friday morning! [1818|november 05 2003]

[ mood | impatient ]

[ music | unko - shime no uta ]

Mn...

Friday morning I have to be back at the recruiter's office in Huntsville at 0330. That's 3:30 AM for you non-military people. I have to go to Nashville to take the physical and take the ASVAB (again, took it once in 11th grade). I should have no problem scoring high on the test, considering I scored a 70 on the practice ASVAB that the recruiter gave me. And a 70 is good considering the national average is 42.

I'll also have to choose my MOS on Friday, but I'm still not sure yet. There are so many to choose from. @_@ I'm really considering something computer or MI related. And when I choose my MOS, I'll find out when I get sent off for BMT. @_@

Oho... I hope I don't have to wait months and months like some people are.

^^;;

And... I'm sitting here listening to a song by unko, Kikasa's little side band with Yuki... and I'm all "o___o'" The song is so different from anything I've heard Kikasa do. It's... odd, to say the least. But odd in a good way.

<3

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For the better... [2216|november 03 2003]

[ mood | decided ]

[ music | baroque - irokoi ]

-deep breath-

I've come to a decision. It's time for me to take charge of my life, to get things in order, to establish a place for myself in the real world... to find out who I really am.

Tomorrow morning... I will drive to Tullahoma with my mum... I will enter the recruiter's office. And if I am qualified, I will be enlisting in the United States Army.

This will be my chance to make something of myself, to earn work experience - life experience, and the discipline I truly need to get through life. My dad was in the Army. I've always looked up to and respected my dad for his strength of mind. The military helped shape my dad in to the man he is today - someone who never gives up and always gets the job done, even under the toughest of pressure. I'm hoping it will do the same for me.

In closing, I will say, that if I am accepted, I will be leaving for BMT as soon as they will let me. Some ties will have to be severed, things left behind. People will be pissed, hurt. Call me selfish, call me what you will but, it's time to grow up, to live for myself and not everyone else.

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New style and layout... [0415|october 28 2003]

[ mood | tired, but accomplished ]

[ music | X Japan - Sadistic Desire ]

Ugh. After struggling for awhile I finally got my style and layout into some kind of order. No, it's not finished yet, but I'm tired and my fingers are cramping. So, I'm going to sleep and finish with the minor stuff later.

The new layout features Akira, one of the guitarists for the Japanese band baroque. Baroque happens to be one of my favourites. =)

The image quality is by no means the greatest, but it's honestly hard to find high quality images of baroque. I had such a time finding that one... u.u;

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messyness [2057|october 27 2003]

[ mood | cold ]

[ music | Zilch - Inside the Pervert Mound ]

Sorry for the ugly journal, folks. Like anyone reads it anyway... But I'm fiddling with a new layout right now.

Deal with it.

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[1535|october 27 2003]

[ mood | slightly amused ]

[ music | Dir en grey - audience KILLER LOOP ]

Kaoru Hand
Kaoru's hands. Ah, artists and their
hands...always creating. Ever graceful, ever
gentle. Er...dammit admit it, that's just half
of you. You have to be mature more that you
want to, but dammit you want to play with
things too!

What Dir en Grey Anatomy Are You?
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Oho... If I were Kaoru-sama's hands... oh the places they would go. *_*

-coughs-

<^> to the driver who cut me off on the Parkway today. >>;

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Winamp skin [0418|october 27 2003]

[ mood | bored ]

[ music | Syndrome - Slept doll ]

ne...

Just a Winamp skin I made about a year ago... decided I might post it up here to see what people think. Just follow the Lj-cut to see a larger image and to get the download link, if you like.

( air... )

If you decide to download, please comment. ^^;

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[2245|october 22 2003]

[ mood | normal...or hype~r O.o<^> ]

[ music | a shuffling of hide (and hide with Spread Beaver) songs ^^v ]

Ò.ó<^>

Kii has returned to her non-psychotic ranting self. If the other one should return, feel free to ignore her.

Now that my temporary psychosis has passed... I HAVE QUIZZES!! -cackles- Oh, yes... those annoyingly entertaining little things everyone tries now and then.

Your Sex Dream Is Miyavi
Miyavi is a solo artist that knows how to rock. You like a guy with lots of personality, and really stands out. Miyavi is a guy that jokes around but still can be a sexy guy. You like things to be hot a steamy but want it to contain a bit of innocence.

Good Bands: Miyavi, Gackt

TAKE THE QUIZ AT OOH-LA-LA.NU!

Hahaha. >>;;; Imagine that... Miyavi. He's great. Though I do question his sanity sometimes (when I should apparently be questioning my own)...

( Follow the LJ-cut, my little droogies... )

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We're all mad here... [2044|october 22 2003]

[ mood | ignore me I'm delusional ]

[ music | Rammstein - Ich will ]

You know what?

I think I'm losing my mind. So, just ignore that last post... or don't. Actually, just do whatever the fuck you want. You will anyway.

I don't know...

Maybe I am losing my sanity. Maybe it's just the green tea I've been drinking. Or maybe I read too much and watch too many movies. Hmm... Oh, nevermind. I think too much. That's my problem. I think too fucking much. But everyone has that problem. Some... more than others. Thought is what makes people crazy.

Have you ever tried to tell your brain to shut up and give you some peace? Have you ever tried to clear all thought from your mind? In order to do that, you would have to be virtually dead, otherwise... you'd never be able to return. Why? Because the thought would need to be there to tell you that you must return. So... It's virtually impossible. (Like that made sense to any of you.)

But honestly... I think too much maybe. I have trillions of little thoughts mucking around in my head right now. Some are conceivable, some are conspiracy theory, some are intelligent, some are even funny, and some of them would probably even scare the shit out of you or make you sick... and there are masses of little things fluttering around that make no fucking sense to anything but my delusional mind. But that can be said for everyone. So, in the end... I am no different than you, and you are no different than me. We are the same...

How unfortunate is that?

(I want...)

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